It is true...

...there's no such thing as "getting over it". You just get used to it. You just live with it. It is not something you can ignore yet it is not something you can drop. Maybe just accept the fact that it's gonna be there for a lifetime and just not wrestle with it... a loss will always be a loss, a scar will always be a scar. This, I gathered partly from the experiences of others that have gone before me and partly my own. With things like that you don't look back and smile... you're morbid if you do. Like CW said, it's a new sense of normalcy. You walk differently, smile differently, talk differently. You don't get over it. You never do.

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It's one thing to compare yourself with others, it's another to realise that you suck (pardon my language tsktsk) at the one thing... the ONLY thing you ALWAYS thought you were good at. One has to do with feeling inferior because of others, the other is about embracing reality. Well, both aren't wonderful feelings at all. It really is quite a shattering thought.


WillZ